the future-nightmare - chapter 6°

Hey guys!

This is going to be about chapter 6 and I´ll explain to you what Sam´s dream-future looks like. 

I´m right at the time still in holidays and I really enjoyed my free days – but today is already the last day… :(

I´m through the sixth chapter, which is exclusively about Sam dreaming a future dream – I should better call it a future nightmare because it seems to be really horrible for him. 

Sam is about one year ahead of every one of us but he doesn´t know what happened in the time between real life and his current dream. "I can't remember going to bed, or falling asleep; all I can remember is waking up." (page 81, line 15-16). When he wakes up, he´s in Alicia´s bed with her and a crying baby. The baby is his son and its name is Roof. He goes to college and he and Alicia try to live together and be good parents.
But Sam doesn´t know that from the beginning on. He just gets into the whole story as we do. He says “It felt like I was playing some sort of game that everyone else knew the rules for except me.” (page 86, line 23). That describes the whole situation perfectly. 

It´s a real nightmare for him because he is such a bad father. He doesn´t know his son´s name! Sam is also not able to wind the baby. He doesn´t know at all how to get around with a baby and what to do with it. Actually, he is really confused about everything and doesn´t know what is happening to him. 

I feel like this shows Sam´s real fears for the future. He is going to be a dad, a really young dad, and he doesn´t know how. His own dad lives apart from him and he has no real role model for becoming a good father. How should he “learn” being a father? Who shows him how to do everything?
He is obviously not ready for becoming a father. That´s shown when he says “I didn´t want to get into the whole Roof nightmare” (page 96, line 9). 

He also meets a girl, who is supposed to be his friends but of course he can´t remember her. She also has a baby, so he thinks that she might help him to get again into everything. 

But even more confusing, shocking, strange or unexpected is that Sam´s mum is pregnant. “My mum wouldn't have put a football up her jumper. My mum was pregnant." (page 94, line 33) That was unexpected tough! 

The biggest wish he has is to live a normal life. He wants back his life before he met Alicia. Honestly, I can totally understand him.
The quotation “I just sat there feeling homesick and sad and sorry for myself. I missed my old life” (page 97, line 18) illustrates this wish. It´s one of my favourite quotations because it is so real and it could also be me saying “I feel sad and sorry for myself”.
That´s also why I really like the last few sentences of the chapter: “And if it was my life that I´d seen, well, I didn´t want to live it. I wanted my old life back, I wanted someone else´s life. But I didn´t want that one.” (page 99, line 23-25) These are so real too and I can identify with Sam here.
Sam is definitely afraid of his life being like that in a year. He´s only 16 right at the time and it seems impossible to him to handle college, a baby, living with your girlfriend or ex-girlfriend and having a part-time job or something. 

lovely baby Roof <3 

source: https://www.instagram.com/p/BFgrCGzM9tV/?taken-by=1lovebabys

He at least wakes up at the end and knows that this was “only” a dream… 

In my opinion, it is also a nightmare, but maybe not as bad as Sam thinks it is. He has no normal life of a teenager anymore and he has to be an adult from now on – it´s like a stolen childhood… But his mum and also Alicia´s parents support the young family. At least they still have plans for their future and they can go to college. 

What do you think about chapter 6 and Sam´s dream? And about Roof?

What I also want to share with you is this really cool and suitable fact: The probability that dreams come true is 52%.Can you believe that?

Looking forward to your comments and the next chapters!

Love, Melanie